It was fun while it lasted, right?
That was what you told me when you crushed my world. Everything I knew ended that night. I still don't know how we got to where we are, but I hope this really was the right choice for you and that you don't regret it because contrary to popular belief, I am not stupid. I put my whole trust in you; all of my love, all of my time, all of my all. I gave you everything and all you gave me was a bullshit excuse and a "we can still be friends". I am not stupid enough to give in to that. I hope that you got something out of this whole mess. Maybe if you are thinking about breaking a girls heart, you shouldn't tell all of her friends before you actually do it.
Then again, maybe I am stupid.
Stupid for not understanding that with all of the shit that you put me through, I shouldn't have stayed. The fact that you wouldn't even walk me out to my car because you "didn't have shoes on" or how you wouldn't kiss me goodnight or how you made me feel so unwanted all the time without fail should have been a clear sign to get the hell out of there before you ruined me. But that's the thing with you. You're intoxicating and you know it. You use it to your advantage to get whatever you want whenever you want it. Regardless of how it hurts others. Regardless of how it hurt me.
After countless nights of drinking and crying myself to sleep, I've decided that it's your loss. In just three days, I'll be in a whole new town with all new people, and you'll be stuck here in this miserable place with reminders of me everywhere you look. You'll have your "carefree last
year" and I'll have the "freedom" to do whatever the hell I want without you. And when the time comes for you to crawl back to me, saying how you never meant any of it, I'll be on top of the world with a whole new life, laughing in your face.
And in between the laughs, you'll look into my eyes and see that I'm only human, and that I do not, in fact, have a heart of stone. Because even though I have said all of this hateful nonsense, when that day comes, I know I'll take you back quicker than how you threw me away.
Sincerely,
Stupid Me
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