Pill after pill, day after day, I only feel worse.

Everything I have known up to this point has vanished until nothing familiar remains.

Home is supposed to be where the heart is, but where is the heart when you have nothing left to call your own?

God, I feel so pathetic and fucking useless all the time. I have tried so hard to detach myself from any trace of you, and yet here I am, still dreaming of what my life was. I have attempted to convince myself that you were not good for me and that I gave up my aspirations to be with you, so why do I still feel like throwing up when a decent memory fills my mind?

I just don't understand change anymore. Why can't things just remain constant for once? I do not feel that consistency when good should be too much to ask of someone.

I pray that I find the strength to forget soon, because I am so tired of feeling this way.